Recently moved to the Farm! Living under a beautiful Cedar Tree! some tales of the tale...
Eating a gooey chocolate chip and sweet potato cookie in between typing. Marveling at what a full weekend I have had! What I did today: Tomato and squash planting in the dawn of the sun, Preparing food for 15 people who are participating in a Permaculture design course (Indian mung bean dish, baked french fries, fresh farm green salad, and fruit salad). In trade for cooking food I was able to sit in on their classes today and learned how to measure distances without a measuring tape and got to sit in on a slide show on thermal dynamics, no waste farming while creating biodiversity for niche climates and organisms. Qi-gong in the woods, Conversations with farmies. What I did yesterday: Collecting slugs and worms to feed baby ducks who explored life outside their cage for the first time, weeding, cleaning up and re-organizing small nursery, meditation, sleeping, trip into town for sister circle with my new Isreali friend; Hadas.
All of this while integrating the change in relationship to a loved one. Reestablishing love with myself, relaxing into Gods perfect by perfect moments each moment. Letting Go into Surrendered prayer. Crying. Letting go of expectations. Noticing the pollen drifting in the sky like silken sail boats in the wind. Resting.
Where am I now? Opening into my heart, sensitizing to subtle fragile vibrations of love and light, loving myself loving myself ever practicing loving myself, listening whole heartedly to myself creates the space to listen and be present whole heartedly for everything else. Observing rather than doing. Letting go again. Still holding onto something deep within my gut, lower dan-tien-related to survival and shocked anticipation at life. Relaxing into that feeling and releasing stagnation. Learning to stand with balance and flow - hips tilted forward, back and shoulders relaxed, feeling K move up and down spine. Admiring people's eyes. Everyone has such beautiful eyes! Learning to appreciate everyone, especially those who I want to not let in, allowing myself to question that side of myself.
My intention for this month, as new moon creates renewal and change. My intention: Pray and meditate every day. Establish a place on the farm to pray and meditate every day. Observe and let go of expectations, listen into where Divine Mystery is guiding me, integrate all this change, write about love, experience love, fall in love each moment, allow love to open me up and expand me - rest and solitary time. Art.
Thank you for reading! peace to you!
