So totally in a new phase of my life. I feel more mature to adapt to change and new experiences. Though i am still not "PERFECT" Haha, to think this is still part of my daily process. Though I can still make mistakes or choices and not be totally identified with them or the outcome. I have discovered a new compassion and solidarity with myself - able to step out of the box of "doing this a certain way only". Having free choice and practice with each moment. And though I still take part in certain things which i know on a deeper level don't serve me completally - I am free of suffering from attatchment to thinking it controls who i am. Less comparison to others, or at least really seeing it more and more as it happens and choosing instead to honor and appreciate myself and my uniqueness and soul. Spending time alone and with others and engaging in what i really want to do with my life. Finding new insight into the NOW, and waiting, exploring all options for future paths to unfold. I can see this space I am in as only a temporary experience. Job and school - all this as a reference point - always brining me closer to my dream.
I prayed and cried and felt into my heart today as I stared up at the full moon. I fell asleep with the candle lit and the light of the moon touching me. God asked me, What do you want? And through it all, the answer came to me at last: HOME.
More than career, success, - I am seeking my home. Please God, bring me closer to that which I am seeking - my family, beauty, nature - my Home. I pray for this, please show me the way.
