Thoughts on Money

So a friend recently suggested I start writing about money as a way to get out all my undesirable beliefs and patterns surrounding this topic. I have recently been faced with certain circumstances which have pointed me in this direction to fully reveal anything I am holding unconsciously. Money has always been there, not a lot, but is has existed in a form like a cloud above my head, giving me what I need, just as a flower receives water from a rain cloud. It has never been a source of identification or power or lack. It has always fit me comfortably when I needed it. This has been due to my own natural saving habits, my family's upper-middle class upbringing, and my own dis-interest to have any other relationship with it. College was paid for by money inherited when my step-mother died and travels i have taken have either been partially supported by savings or gifts. I am recognizing my privilege in this.

My privilege has kept me blind from my own habits, beliefs, and maturity concerning finance, business, work, security. As I am approaching an age in which I desire more security and independence away from my listless wanderings and discoverings of the world I step down from certain clouds of obscurity and delusion. I have to step up to the cold hard facts. And yet, naming them cold and hard is also a belief pattern and one that is keeping me from earning and living a life with a comfortable flow.

This is exactly what I want. A comfortable flow and a mature and responsible, reasonable position and relationship with money which supports my life the way I want to live it. Money has always been associated with over-work, time out of my life, lack of freedom, not being wild and free and innocent. These are childhood and young adult beliefs. I am ready to take on a life which fully takes responsibility for myself and my needs. This in some way feels scary but very exciting. I can no longer rely on anyone else for support or a false net to fall back on. I don't want to manipulate anyone else for their money or expect that everything will be taken care of it I fall into a hole or a rut.

The tarot reading I received recently suggested three things about money: Three cards fell off the bottom of the deck which were blocking and hiding the Star card, which represents abundance, manifesting dreams, and good fortune. The reading suggesting that if I don't look at these three things, then my vision and dreams will be blocked. This unconsciousness around money blocks the universe from giving me what is coming to me. The universe wants to give to me. The three cards had to do with:

A) Giving my all to what i have in my life right now. Not doing just a B average, but giving an A for effort. B is for betrayal. In ceremony recently i received a message from God. God wants to see what we are doing with what we have already in our lives. Are we thankful, grateful? are we using what we have for good? Are we being resourceful and using our powers of creativity, skill, and heart to act and use our lives purposefully? This is important, because many of us take what we have for granted and are constantly thinking and waiting for what is coming next. Believing if we just focus on manifestation and visualization, we are calling what we "deserve" into our lives: The next job, the next relationship, the next best thing over that hill, if we could just see it, if we could just grasp it. All the time avoiding and stepping over the pitfalls in our own lives and wasting the abundance all around us. God is watching to see what you do with the grace you have received Now. Do you think you will receive something more if you are wasting the gifts you already have? So in my own life, how am I avoiding my job, my home, my body. These are gifts and I am learning to treat them well and use all of my energy and love into shaping and acting and working in joy and peace. This i know will make the fertile ground for the next phase of my life.

2) MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!

Money is neutral. It's what we do with it, how we hold it, and our beliefs which are corrupted and misguided. Money is a huge source for unconscious patterning, avoidance, and victimization/manipulation. It doesn't have to be this way!!!!! Money is actually very simply put our relationship to the Earth plane. A very 1st chakra relationship. If this is weak, we will feel it extended through our whole lives. Money (or we can call it en energy exchange with physicality and effectiveness on the Earth plane), needs to be in place or we will have little effect in our lives and how we can act and create in them. Money is actually an extension of creativity and love. God wants us to be prosperous, to receive the gifts of support and security so that we may do the work of divinity and love. This may be hard to hear, but it means you have a limiting belief around money. The belief could be that those who have it are corrupt and evil, that those who have it are privileged and spoiled, that those who have it are somehow better off and higher than those who don't. These are all false beliefs. The fact is our whole world is controlled by this very simple relationship and that in itself is very unbalanced. It should actually be a lot simpler than this. If economics and money handling and work ethics were taught and shared with an appreciation and respect for money and the general law of practical exchange with the physical world, things would be a lot more balanced. The problem is some are extremely lacking while others have way too much. Having an honest and clean relationship with money and work (part of everyone's life) is a very basic step for every human being. ESPECIALLY those in the new consciousness movement. The fact that we are controlled by our belief that money is "bad" effects how smoothly we may act and make change in this world. Money is an asset and taken with a healthy outlook can aid you in your freedom, wildness, activism, and spiritual passions.

3) Money will not take away your freedom. It will actually give you more freedom. You do not have to be a slave to your job. You do not have to sell yourself. Money may come easily and naturally. But first learn to balance your checkbook!